Lonely and Depressed

Hey, I dont really want to go onto specifics, so forgive me if it sounds vague. Ever felt alone? Felt like nobody even glances your way? Yeah, thats how I feel. First, at home, nobody has time for me anymore. At school, me and my friends are being bullied. Finally, its your turn. Imagine all these people who you talked to every day, went to the same school, and actually knew them more than family. Then, dont talk to them for a few a few months. Three or four. Now, imagine going back to them and not getting a second glance, not being noticed, not even an eye blinked towards you. That happened to me too. So, I am going to share a few pictures, and inbetween, a song that has just encouraged me.

To everyone who's lost someone they love

long before it was their time

You feel like they days you had were not enough

when you said goodbye. 

To all of the people with burdens and pains

keeping you back from your life

You believe that there's nothing and there is no one

who can make it right

There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering

When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus

To the widow who suffers from being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight

Song Update: Classical Music Two to Four!

Well, my second song update! So, lets talk about classical music! How many of you -assuming anyone reads this, which I think they do since I have at least 200 views- like classical music? (Rhetoric question.) Not many people are so happy about classical music, but that is just because they haven't felt it. You need to feel that magical pull, tugging at your soul, before you have really heard classical music. So, let's go to some fun, amazing, and awe-striking songs, made from only instruments.



1. Jupiter... Amazing, empowering, and classical! It has that feeling that gives something that most songs don't have: a feeling of triumphant and utter joy!!! Be happy!













2. A Disneyland Celebration... Excuse the beep. We played this song for band at my school. I've listened to it ever since. Try blasting it on speakers. AMAZIN'!!!












3. Flight of the Bumblebee... Trombone version. I chose this version not because I play trombone, but because the slide moves so fast!!! Doesn't it sound like a bumblebee?











4. Fur Elise... ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING SONGS OMIGOSH!!! Fangirl, girls, fangirl. It is the best. Beethoven. Song. Evah. Duh.

Song Update: The First Of Many!

Well, I think it would be nice if I could do some weekly music updates. I'll try to do weekly, and at least one or more on the weekends. Each update will have a specific theme, and this one is the first of many. These are songs that inspired a revolution. But this doesn't just mean started a generation. Inspiring a new genre's popularity counts too. So, here is the top 5.

• Gangnam Style. Even though this song isn't a wow anymore, it certainly inspired a lot of people to become interested in k-pop, and so it definitely deserves recognition. 

• Brave. Okay, this video isn't really on my favorite list, but I can still admire it. It gives me hope, inspiration, into a needy topic: bullying. It inspires me to keep looking into artists like Pink and Katy Perry, who both have inspiring songs in this topic.

• She Will Be Loved. This is a romantic song that gives a powerful message. The band is amazing, and it gives the demand of love some thought, as it talks about a man who loves a girl who always loves someone else, but he is always there for her and wants the best for her.

• Sail. Though more popular than the original title I was going to put here, Radioactive, it definitely points you in that direction.

• Lose My Soul. This is definitely a Christian song that will leave your heart pounding and make you want more. It is amazingly sung, and there isn't much more that I can say except: watch it.

Since you've seen my list, tell me yours! I really want to know!!!

An Encounter At Thompson

This is a true story, from my friend Galia!! I will be putting more comments at the end!! This is a revised version for people who don't know Galia.

So, my friend Savannah wasn't at school on Wednesday, and I was sitting in Drama class with an empty seat next to me. We were waiting for a magic show to begin, and two boys, Jonah and Dylan were horsing around, and got our teacher Mrs. Everret mad. Mrs. Everret told Jonah to go sit somewhere else. Jonah stood up and said "May i go sit in the front so you can watch me more easily?" Mrs. Everret wasn't paying attention and was like "OK, sure." Jonah walks up and pulls the seat next to me. "Hey Galia" He says. I was drawing a picture of a bright, pink rose getting stabbed and bleeding and Jonah looks at it and leans in. "I love it," He says, "especially the blood running down and dripping onto the floor. It looks beautiful. By the way, have i ever told you that you are beautiful, darlin?" He emphasizes the beautiful, and i go rigid, like a pole. I swallow and say, "Yes, you have Jonah. Thank you. And don't call me that!" (I meant darlin, but he took it as beautiful.) "Sure thing darling." he says. And.. Then he... Gently caresses my picture. Yeah. You heard me. That idiot lightly runs his hand along my paper. Then he leans in real close. Like real close. My eyes widen, and I say real quickly "No!" I shove him away, and look away refusing to look at him, covering my face with my hand, and blushing like crazy. Dylan says from the other side of the room. "Oh, yeah Jonah. She likes you." I look over and glare daggers at him. He gulps and looks away. I turn back to Jonah. "I'm sorry I shoved you, but you kind of scare me." I say. The teacher starts to talk and I lean forward to hear her better. Jonah leans closer and whispers. "I  like you." He says. I ignore him and keep listening to the teacher. He repeats it again "I like like you" He whispers again. "Will you be my girlfriend?" I turn to him. He is staring into my eyes like he always does. Didn't his mom tell him that it's rude to stare?  Anyway, I say hesitantly "I thought that you liked (person)." He crinkles his eyebrows and says "No." I gulp. He asks again. "Will you please be my girlfriend?" I look down. "No." He gets all emotional. "Why not? Am i ugly?" He asks, hurt. "Heck no." I tell him. " Then wh- You know what? It's OK if you don't like me" he says. I relax and ask tentatively "Really?" He looks away moodily. "Jonah?" I ask. "It makes sense. You don't like me at all, so i won't like you back either." He says all hurt and mad. OK, I'll admit that I was rude, but he so deserved it... kinda. (not really!) "...Jonah. I like you as a friend." I tell him softly. He doesn't look at me and replies" No, you don't." He sighs. The bell rings and he quickly walks away and out the door. At lunch, he was surrounded by girls, and i felt bad because i actually hurt Jonah, The most loved boy in school! Everybody would hate me if he told any girl, because most of the girls gossiped pretty badly. I sat with a person that liked Jonah before, and I told her, "Hey, um, i need to go talk to Jonah." She was like "OK. HEY JONAH!!" she yells. I was like 'mental face palm' He turns around and she was like "GALIA WANTS TO TALK TO YOU!!" She screams. He says something and she gasps. "I think he just called you a b--ch!" She breathes. I feel fury wash over me and I stomp over to him. "WHAT did you just call me?!" I growl dangerously. Unfortunately, (person) was with me. Jonah answered with, "Huh? what are you talking about?" Person was like "Did you just call her a 'b'?" Jonah was like "NO,NO!!" I'm like, "OK, i need to talk to you..." He looks at me blankly. I take a deep breath, and say "I don't hate you Jonah, I actually like you..." He smiles slightly, "Really?" He asks hopefully. "...As a friend." I finish. He looks away and steps closer, sniffing and blinking quickly (that Drama king!). and did I tell you that he is tall? Yeah. He looks down and says emotionally and sadly. "So that means you don't..." He sniffs and gulps. The girls fall for it and all my so called friends are like "GALIA!! Apologize to him and like him, or you'll break his heart!" (There were like 5 girls and they are popular and we're in the most popular lunch spot!) "NO!" I say. Then they all grab me and start forcefully pushing me into his arms. I look at him and he has a small smile through his fake tears and his arms out. They were pushing me into his full front hug. It was terrifying, and I couldn't get away. I got so upset, I almost cried! I shoved them away angrily and glared almost tearfully at Jonah. I almost said "I hate you", but just stomped away. A random boy walks up to me and hugs me from the side. I just stand there and say "Do you know me?" He looks at me "No." He says. "Then don't touch me." I growl. Jonah stayed away from me the rest of the day. 

  Well, there you have it folks. Her boyfriend is a crazy nutjob! I laughed so hard listening to this, and then I got sober once I realized what I would have done. I would have punched Jonah right then and there, and you know where that would lead!

Top 2 of Top 10!

• Top 2: Upbeat songs!

1. Radioactive by Imagine Dragons
2. Sail by Awolnation

• Top 2: Romantic Songs!

1. I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz
2. When I Was Your Man by Bruno Mars

• Top 2: Romantic People!

1. Bruno Mars (singer)
2. Emmett Bledsoe (character on Switched at Birth television show)

• Top 2: Band Songs!

1. Orange Bowl (summer band)
2. Slim Trombone (summer band)

• Top 2: Apple Products!

1. iPad Mini
2. iPhone 4s

• Top 2: Funnest Words To Say!!

1. Flugelhorn
2. Bumpkin

• Top 2: Earphones/Earbuds!!

1. Skullcandy
2. tour bus earbuds

• Top 2: Foods!!!!!!

1. Lasagna
2. Pumpkin Pie

• Top 2: States!!!

1. Oklahoma
2. California

• Top 2: Camera Brands!!

1. Nikon
2. Canon

55 Signs You Have Been In Band Too Long

Some of these are not made by me, others are. I can relate to all of them!!

1. All of your friends are in band.

2. When people ask you about your social life, and you say "Oh, you mean my (insert instrument here)?"

3. Band camp is FUN!!!

4. Your instrument has a name.

5. You remember your instrument's birthday, and you forget your mom's.

6. Your instrument has a birthday.

7. When your band uniform actually fits.

8. You see your section more than your family.

9. You have dreams about marching band.

10. You accidentally call your band director 'mom'.

11. A mouthpiece tastes good.

12. Band songs get stuck in your head, and you tap your foot to the beat.

13. You subconsciously start practicing with a pencil.

14. Letters past G aren't important.

15. The only class you look forward to is band.

16. When you wonder what your life would be like without band.

17. Those stupid 'band humor' jokes are the funniest things ever!

18. You start walking in time with the person in front of you.

19. You've had a 'trombone-ectomy'.

20. You freak out at Band Night because you get to see future rookies.

21. When your alone, you suffocate because there is no one to tell you to breathe.

22. Most of your hearing is gone because of percussion, the trumpets, and the drummers.

23. ALL your conversations are about band.

24. You don't hide the fact that you're in band.

25. You subconsciously start humming music.

26. You not only know your own part, but everyone else's too.

27. You daydream about a new instrument.

28. You've used the phrase 'one time in band camp...' in an actual sentence.

29. You can tell who is the drummer, even in the other bands, because he is hot and stupid.

30. When you hear another band and you cringe when they play anything you've played because you know you play it better. 

31. You just want to kill the next person who says 'one time in band camp'.

32. You start playing the band pieces on other instruments for excitement.

33. You have at least five different ways to wear your hair with your band uniform.

34. You only watch a football game to see the band.

35. Carrying something while walking backwards seems no longer hard or uncomfortable.

36. You have convinced random people to join band.

37. Anything/half the stuff in your room says band on it.

38. You can think of more than one reason to stop by the band room before class.

39. You can count on one hand your friends who are not in band.

40. You find ways to use your instrument in non-band classes.

41. The spit from a mouthpiece doesn't taste like spit anymore.

42. You cringe when you hear the word oboe.

43. You find yourself constantly late to everything.

44. You've ever used the excuse "Sorry, I have band that night."

45. You've ever used "It's okay, I'm in band."

46. You know the difference between drummer and percussionist.

47. When you can make your instrument sound like a barnyard animal.

48. You can identify any instrument by its case.

49. You aren't disgusted by the pools of spit on the ground.

50. Hobbies: band.

51. You've ever responded to your confused friends with, "Sorry, its a band thing.

52. You judge a school by how good their band is.

53. You think drummers/percussionists have a chronic playing illness.

54. Whenever you leave early, your teachers always say, "Have fun in band."

55. All your non-band friends have disowned you.

My Life Goals

So, you might say I want to study birds, or go to college, but I don't think anyone really knows all my life goals. So, I was thinking of listing them here. But, as a precaution, just to let you know, I'm twelve, almost thirteen, and this isnt my whole life. I'm a preteen, and here is just my view of life so far.

1. Definitely, I want to be a librarian.

      I love to buy books, rather than rent them, because one day, I will have my own library. Either a public library, or just a large room in my future house devoted to books, full of shelves and all types of books. That's why I save books. All books, even baby books or dictionaries or even the confusing books. I just can't get enough books!

2. A Ornithologist.

       Another thing I love: birds. I would love to visit, and hopefully, work for the Cornell Lab of Ornithology. It is in Ithica, New York. I haven't seen it in person yet, but only because of the distance. One day, I am determined to see it, along with other bird-watching posts in Florida and Great Britain.

3. Archer.

       Now, you could argue that I am already an Archer, but I want more. I want to be really good, Olympic good. Katniss Everdeen good. Robin Hood good. In other words, I want to be SUPERCALIFRAGALISTICEXPIALADOCIOUS good! Just super good! So, make that a really good archer!

4. Photographer.

      Even though many people don't know it, I would really love to be a photographer. To capture beautiful pictures.

Well, now you know a small part of my goals in life! Thanks for listening to my extremely boring chat!

Quotes That Either Describe Me or Inspire Me

"Upset? I'm not upset. You don't know how much pain I'm in. It's like I'm being cut open everyday and bleed onto the stones. I can't understand how any of you failed to see the blood."
     -Erin Hunter

Dream big and dare to fail.
     -Norman Vaughan

The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible.
     -Arther C. Clarke

I avoid looking forward or backward, and try to keep looking upward.
     -Charolett Bronttë

There is no friend as loyal as a book.
     -Ernest Hemingway

The Road goes ever on and on

Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.
     -The Fellowship of the Ring by J.R.R. Tolken

We tell ourselves stories in order to live.
      -The White Album by Joan Didion

There is no sunrise so beautiful that it is worth waking me up to see it.
     -Is Everyone Hanging Out With Me? by Mindy Kaling

A reader lives a thousand times before he dies; a man who never reads only lives once
     -Anonymous

The first thing reading teaches us is how to be alone
     -Jonathan Franzen